I didn't even have to open my eyes to know that the room was spinning terribly fast. I tried to think, even in my sleep, what would have caused said spinning of room, but before any ideas came to mind, I opened my eyes and immediately became ill. Covers were thrown, floor was stumbled across, and toilet seat lifted.... there I sat for thirty minutes. I don't believe I've ever had dizzy spells so bad that they made me physically ill, but these past few days I have. I can't even sleep because every time I turn over, I spin. I looked it up on webmd, and it said I have vestibular neuronitis, which is an infection of the vestibular nerve in the inner ear... this would make much sense. I've called into work for the second day in a row, and I am hoping I don't have to go to the doctor for this. It sounds ridiculous and made up, but I swear to God I've never been so dizzy and nauseous in my whole life. It is quite fitting, though, that everything is moving too fast and making me sick. It just happens to be that my life is, as well, doing just that.
On another note.... I miss him. I have been dreaming about him, and wondering if he still thinks of me, and it makes me sad. One of my best friends is getting married.... and I wondered why that would never be me. Everyone around me is in a relationship or getting married, and however much I've always bitched about it and said I would never do it, It would be awfully nice to be loved. I know that I am... I know that he loves me. I can feel it in the pit of my stomach........ it's still there in my heart. I just need to feel it. No matter how much I try to get it off my mind and just let it go, it won't go. I hope I am still in your dreams. *tear* Amber, pray for me or something..... and congratulations....
AMBER AND JAKIE.................. APRIL 16TH!!!!!!
Posted by michellegsfl at January 11, 2005 10:50 AM | TrackBackSorry to hear about you ailment, take a multivitamin if you do not already so your body will have access to whatever trace minerals or nutrients that it needs to repair this type of infection. Also stress makes it worse, no need to be lovesick. We all go through it, some more than other, but you just have to realize its a passing thing. It would be nice to be loved wouldn't it?, but sometimes you just gotta be alone, thats the way of the cosmos. Don't you have a boyfriend too? And ol' boy. That's more than most wouldn't you say?
Posted by: Deezus at January 11, 2005 02:02 PMthanks babe and I pray for you and my mommy does too
I love you and miss you soooo much