clever minx

Stress Abounds

Well, the recent discovery of Traci's boyfriend readin her text messages on her phone is a bit unnerving. I don't know if it's more the fact that he did it or the fact that she still hasn't broken up with him even after he broke her trust like that. Big fat question mark.... Well, it's been tests, tests, and more tests for me at school. Every time I turn around, there's another fucking test staring me right in the face.... I think I might go crazy or die from stress.. whichever comes first. I recently purchased the best movie ever, which came in handy when Duane didn't get to come into town. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind has to be one of the best movies I've ever seen EVER. Basically... if you fell in love with someone, had them erased from your memory, and then met them again... you'd fall in love with them all over again. You can't help who you love..... isn't that the fucking truth? If I could help who I loved I wouldn't be in this fucked up situation right now. So, since I relate so well to this film and it makes me feel all warm and fuzzy.... I've subjected myself to watching it about three times a day, in between classes and studying and eating... of course. And everytime I watch it I think of him. Shit, everytime I do anything, I think of him. He says he can't stand to miss me like this... so we'll see if he makes it up here before drill. I know it's hard for him to get around everything, but if he makes that kind of effort..... I will know that this might be real. We shall see. For right now, this is all I have to say...... except it appears that John Kerry won the debate.... so let's all pray that he wins the race!!!

And some lyrics from Beck (or Korgis):

Change your heart, look around you
Change your heart, it will astound you
I need your loving like the sunshine
And everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime