clever minx

Back to Blog Therapy

Well, I've got nothing in particular to talk about. This is just a rant, really about life in general. This morning we had a meeting at work where a lady went off on my friend and went crazy on me when I took up for her. I think she must have some mental problems because she's always talking about some conspiracy about her, and in the meeting, she said something about some black people in Alabama being hung. This, of course, had nothing to do with the conversation that was taking place at that time. And for the record, I've decided that our program manager is officially fucking crazy as well. I believe it would be safe to say that more crazy people work there than are housed there.
On another note, Wayne called me back, which is good. I've not been talking about my personal life for a while. I had done the therapy thing, then the blog therapy thing, then I just decided to keep things to myself. I think I've gotten to the point, now, where I can let people in on my personal stuff again. I'm straight with myself, and that's where I needed to be. So, basically, (to put you up to date on the past couple of months of Michelle's personal life) I met another guy from Murfreesboro. He came into town and took me out and we hit it off. He's really nice, but I'm really numb. I don't feel a lot of negative, I don't feel a lot of positive... I think I've built a wall so high that no one can pierce it. So nothing is really personal to me right now. Maybe this will be a great friendship or maybe eventually it will turn into something. Check back in a year. Also, Luke (yes, from last year) and his girlfriend broke up AGAIN. I called and left my number AGAIN. He still hasn't called AGAIN. Honestly, as much as that would've bothered me six months ago, I just don't care. It's sort of monotonous the way these predictable letdowns come over and over and over again, but not hurtful. Like I said, numb.
I've been thinking about what I'm going to do with my life. As usual, I come to a bunch of conclusions.. things I'm interested in, things I've always wanted to do, things I can do easily.. what will take work. I've realized that I'm just always going to be indecisive, and I'll just have to do a bit of everything to make myself happy, I suppose. I AM going back to school in the fall, though. If my money situation works itself out. Hopefully.
For right now that is all. I work, I sleep, I still got game, and I'm still standing. yeah, yeah, yeah.